It's coming near..
the day of moving.
What it means to me......
I hate it- but yet it gets me on my ass
AGAIN!! "Maybe this time I'll know what I want to do"
Right....wrong again.
I want Chris to love Tenneessee like I do sooo bad
This trip has got me soo in a knot
you know what I mean... alot rides on this trip
us moving- or a possible long distance relationship
which i don't want to do- but i don't want to leave him
I do love him, a lot
I just love Tennessee so much, too
I'm one of those people that need a
I heart Tennessee sticker on my car!
or, my hearts in Tenneessee....
yeah, I need one of those.

I don't want to move back in with my Dad
but my house is not ready yet...
and it ain't going to be ready in 2 weeks
what the fuck!!!
I don't want to move with the starkey's either
I guess we'll see what happens

I'm having such anxiety and depression these days
I need that free tape I've heard on the radio
I'm going to go get my cholosterol checked to morrow
Apparently I have really high blood pressure too
the nurse told me after checking it three times in each arm to
see if it would go down.....It didn't much
But it was better in my left arm than my right
SO I'm going to check my choleterol tomorrow
if it's still really high
I'm going to blame it on stress
I've been eating pretty good and taking fiber
blahhh-- so it better have worked
Or it's stress...I have to get out of here if it is stress
go to a stress free area
were I don't have to worry about this damn house
were I'm going to live
what kind of drama my brothers are going to bring me tonight
my mom's problems, my pics aren't selling anymore, I have no fucking money
I'm being supported by a guy, fucking kissimmee, puerto ricans, mexicans
fucking poinciana, and st. cloud
brother starkey, or WORK- the biggest of them all
oh and that slut Tina green,
yeah, I guess you could say I have problems
and no friends-- here anyways, that I can go to or hang out with
which sucks so much!